For the in-between moments.
the Space
After.
When something inside you changes, but your life around you still looks the same.
You don't need more pressure. You need somewhere to land for a moment.
This isn't really about productivity. And it's not a place to "fix" yourself either. It's more for those moments when life keeps moving but internally, you're still trying to understand who you are now. No pressure to become a better version of yourself here. No rushing. No pretending you already have the answers. Just a small space to breathe for a moment.
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de'luga presents becoming
A small architecture for becoming again.
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My Before / My After
Name who you were. Name what changed. Name who you may be becoming.
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Today I Can Hold
Not a to-do list. One thing you can do, feel, need, rebuild.
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Healing + Structure
Gentle check-ins for the body and mind you have now.
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Identity Rebuild
Slow prompts for what you're grieving — and what's still alive.
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Read This
Short passages for the moments that don't have a name yet.
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Progress That Feels Human
Days you showed up. Truths you told. Proof you kept going.
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becoming
a game about who you are and who you're ready to be — also by de'luga.
Why this exists
A note from the person who made this
It actually only took me 25 years 🤣😅
But honestly… I made peace with my fate almost immediately. I accepted it very quickly. The hard part wasn't losing tennis itself. The hard part was that I had only ever known myself as an athlete. I truly believed that without tennis, I wasn't capable of anything else. I didn't know who I was outside of it. What work I would do. What my place in the world would even be.
I had lived inside this very safe identity bubble since childhood. And then I became a mother, and I stepped fully into that role too. And somewhere in all of that, I slowly disappeared from myself again. I forgot what I liked. Who I was outside of taking care of everyone else. And after so many years focused on one path, I genuinely felt like I didn't know how to do anything else.
Over time, something in me started asking deeper questions. So I began searching inward — more spiritually, emotionally — trying to understand myself beyond achievement or roles. And at the same time, I started writing my book. And while writing it, I realized something really important: none of this was a punishment. Maybe it was actually my path. Maybe everything I went through happened so I could one day help someone else feel less alone in their own "in-between" moment.
And as I kept going deeper into myself, I started asking: "What is left from the old version of me that I can carry into the new one?" That question changed everything for me. Because I realized I couldn't rush a new identity. If I built it out of fear or panic, I would still be building my life on old foundations. And strangely, once I stopped forcing it… the ideas started coming naturally. The writing. The music. The jewelry. Everything. And through all of that, I slowly started finding myself too. Not the old version of me — but a new one that still carried pieces of her.
So truthfully… I don't feel pain inside myself anymore. And I honestly don't think I ever truly did. Maybe sadness sometimes for what could have been. But I also realized that yes — maybe I could have had a beautiful and successful life in tennis. But I might never have learned why I'm really here. And that I can be more than just one role. More than one identity.
And I think that's why this space exists.
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